This is my first year joining in on the BGGSS, see I lost my Christmas Spirit 11 years ago with a tragic divorce. We use to go all out for the Holiday season starting well before Thanksgiving and I have lost so many traditions. Decorating the house inside and out, I had a life size Santa Sleigh with 9 Reindeer in the yard along with a lighted "Tree" I created using our flagpole. Each year the kids and I would spend a day baking all kinds of cookies, create huge platters out of them and visit the local police, fire department, and nursing home to deliver Holiday Cheer and then we would ride for a couple of hours seeing all the lights and decorations that others had put up. Christmas morning was insane as you could imagine with 5 kids, but it was the only day I knew I didn't have to work so it was special in more ways than I could count. Santa this past year hasn't been a good one for me. I had a granddaughter but didn't find out until at least 6 months later. I found out that my heart isn't working correctly and there is nothing they can do to fix it, so I don't know how many Christmas's I have left and have decided to try and regain some of the spirit I use to have. I'm going into BGGSS with the idea of being the best Secret Santa I can be and imagining the person I get will have all the joy that I remember from my kids so long ago. Thank you BGG for this opportunity to give once again. I started collecting games with the hope that they would be a good way to reconnect with my kids if ever given the chance, but since that didn't pan out I use to run a game night at a local foster group home for kids but since my health has failed I am no longer able to do that and rarely leave home except to see doctors. I just wish that there is a way to bring joy from the collection of games I have and become one of Santa's Helpers year round once again.