Anthony BoydellUnited Kingdom
UnspecifiedWelcome...to my Shed!
After that foul-mouthed outburst I ought to explain myself. I am bereft, I'm at the bottom of a deep well. My stomach aches with anxiety and I occasionally emit a muttered expletive when a replay of 'the news' pops in to my mind...which it does, regularly, like a garlic-flavoured burp.
On Monday, our partner in the production of Guilds of London told us they had 'cold feet' and wanted to delay until 2016
...on the very day of the deadline to deliver the files to the printer...
...after a frenetic few weeks of me finessing art & layouts with Klemens...
...leaving us little-to-no time to find an alternative...
...having booked to be on a bigger stand at Spiel.
I've been thinking about (ie. obsessing and fretting about) Guilds of London for 9 months now: excited, keen to get it all totally right, constantly pushing and promoting. Now I just feel flat.
We, Surprised Stare, could 'do it for Essen' ourselves (without them) but going it alone at such short notice would mean printing a very limited first Edition: more expensive and, to be honest, we just don't have the cash-flow. We (frenetic me and the extraordinarily patient Alan Paull) have spent the week rushing about trying to reset the specification, get new costings and scrape up some money but it's deadline time and there's no cast-iron guarantee that we could get it delivered for the show. So, another year goes by and Guilds - now gorgeous in it's Franz-ian finery and eager for the off - still languishes. We will, of course, take a deep breath and regroup.
Right now, though, I'm finding it hard to pick up any motivation; I feel mortified and I feel embarrassed.
Behold: the lot of the small, independent games company.
Life and Games (but mostly games) from Tony Boydell: Dad, Husband and Independent UK Game Designer, Agricola fanboy and jealous admirer of Carl Chudyk. www.surprisedstaregames.co.uk
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