It's so sad to say goodbye.
Even Especially to pets
The experience of losing a pet has ripped me up far worse than the loss of some blood relatives. YMMV.
I can understand that indeed. I was just fine up until we saw him at the vet. I lost it. However I feel better about it than I would have a few days ago.
On Monday we came home to find him howling. We took him to the vet and he had a stone in his urinary tract that was too big to pass. After a catheter saline flush the stone got lodged in a spot that let urine flow through and seemed stuck. It was too big to get back to the bladder.
Wednesday night we brought him home and made sure had his meds and new diet.
Thursday I stayed home all day with him as he lounged around on my lap, not wanting to leave it.
This morning he hadn't urinated all night and was not looking well. After taking him in, the stone would not move for anything and he looked quite ill. The vet said he had signs of kidney failure and possible leakage out of the bladder into the abdominal muscles.
We decided he didn't deserve that kind of pain and we put him down. He was 19 and loved by everyone who had ever met him.